Jesus Christ I just realized that I have the best friends in the world.

I mean, not to knock my newish friends (like, the ones I've met at Central) but anyone who knew me before CCSU (and more to the point, before Maureen) knows that I was an absolute PAIN IN THE ASS to be around. Especially Marisa. I mean, seriously, I was BRUTAL. Like, not that I was a mean jerk or whatever but I was just so whiny.

So those of you who have been my friends since 05 or earlier, well done and THANK YOU.

I'm reading these old e-mails from an ex-I-guess-you-could-call-her-girlfriend and like, God damn. I was this girl's bitch essentially. Like, I was that guy who you overhear talking to their significant other you would think to yourself "Holy shit I wanna punch that dude." Just all the sap and shit that always made me sick, and indeed, continues to do so to this very day. I guess I was good at keeping it private and shit but like, Jesus Christ was I pitiful.

Oh well. The past is bullcrap and if Germany can do productive shit after the Holocaust I guess I can move past what a loser I was four years ago.